So I want to get in on this fun of story sharing. I don’t even care if I win; I just hope that I can bring some light to some people and share my story.
So in my family… we’ve had a lot of hatred, disagreements, & just a lot of anger.
Also with that being said… within my family we have a lot of health issues. I’d always been terrified of going to the Hospital because I’ve always had nothing but bad experiences at Hospitals; even though now I’m going to College to get my Nursing degree.
So on the topic of Health. So here we are one Christmas that my family has finally decided to come together and that we were all packed and getting ready to head out of town. My Mother ends up pulling in the driveway one evening towards Christmas Eve/ Day before we were about to leave. Three men with masks in a random van happened to pull up in my driveway behind my Mothers car; and she at this point didn’t look behind her or anything. She just assumed it was okay to get out of her car, that it was safe. For some reason, and I cannot explain this to you; I went to the door that evening to greet her. I’m 6 years old. I immediately yelled out to my Mother to GET BACK IN THE CAR AND LOCK THE DOORS. And she quickly, to her realization saw the men getting out and nearly getting ready to approach her. As they saw me opening the door and yelling to my mother they quickly got back into their vehicle and left. We never to this day know who they were or what their intentions were, but I think they were very clear. So what’s this got to do with health you may ask. My father had been in the Hospital for 2 days getting monitored for his Heart. She was just getting home from seeing him and I was so ecstatic to see her. I’ll never know why to this day I went to the door THAT NIGHT of all nights; but something inside me spoke to me and told me get to the door and welcome your mother. Thank the Lord I went because I saved my mothers life I believe. She then herself ended up in the Hospital needless to say with a severe Migraine. (My Mother & I are both 3rd & 4th gen Migraine) sufferers. So it’s never been easy. I’ve spent MANY Holidays/ special events in the Hospital next to my Mom while she was getting medication through IV to break these severe migraines we suffer from. It really has sucked.
But I will say this. My BEST Christmas present of ALLLL time, the year I turned 21, I’ve been suffering from DEEP DEEP depression and Anxiety all my life and still do to this day. Nearly took my life a few years back. Nevertheless. My dream was to ALWAYS own a Cocker Spaniel Puppy. 21 Years old. My Father is working out of town. I’m living at home with my mom; I have basically one friend who’s 11 years older then me and doesn’t live near me. I’m suffering from Major depression, I’m missing having a Father figure in my life. Missing out on my Senior Prom as he’s been gone for nearly 5 years at this point. Just so many things he missed and me not having him around/ in my life. So around comes Christmas of 2011. Me and my mother randomly went into this place and they had an ad for American Cocker Spaniel Puppies for sale. Now if you’re a person who knows anything about Dogs. American Cocker Spaniels… ARE NOT CHEAP. We by NO means are NOT wealthy people. We are struggling every single day to get by. Everything of ours is behind. Months behind. We’re struggling. (To this current day as well.) So 2011 we’re talking about this puppy. I left my Mother the most beautiful note about this puppy and how much it would change my life and how much I wanted her and what I would do for this little girl and what she’d do for me and my loneliness. I’m an only child if you can’t tell. So I wake up Christmas morning to my Mother saying to me… “Let’s just go take a drive and look at this puppy one more time.” Believe me now guys. This is not a normal thing for my mother to take me someplace and ACTUALLY BUY me something I TRULY want more than anything else in my life…
So we get to this farm. The owners come out to meet up. It was my little girl; and her sister. Those were the only two left of the liter. And she was the one I wanted. So we get there, and they both have a sold sticker on them. I immediately start bawling my eyes out because I know in my head that it’s been a few days; it’s a crazy busy time of the year, and this puppy is a high demand puppy. She’s gone, she’s sold. Someone else has gotten her. My Mother asks the owners if they could bring her out one more time so I could see/ hold her. And I was bawling remember at this point… And I told my Mom I didn’t even care/ want to see her anymore; even though the owner was already going to get her for me. She puts her in my hands; I look at my Mom; and my Mother tells me… She’s yours. I could not believe that my prayers, hopes and dreams had all been answered in a single second of my life. My whole life changed for the rest of my life. She has been the Miracle that’s held me together for the past 8 years. Short small story to go along with this that’s quite funny. My Dad always said that if me and my Mom ever got a Dog… he was moving out. The instant he saw her. He literally melted. He fell in love with her instantly. To this day, we still give him crap saying… "We’re still waiting for you to pack your bags and leave… ya know since we got a Dog and all…
" So this was my best Christmas I can remember. I can tell you this. I have had a horrible time growing up and I feel as though I was robbed of a LOT of my Childhood with all the time I spent in the Hospital with my Mother and Father and Grandparents (as they were my daycare providers when I was younger when my parents went to work). So I was EXTREMELY close to my Mothers parents. They were my family like no other. I loved them more then anything. And sadly I lost them at a VERY young age. So I feel as though I was robbed of a lot of my childhood by spending so much time around Hospitals/ medical centers. And I never got to go see my Dad’s mother and father / his side of the family for any events… Birthdays, Christmas, Easters, Thanksgivings, etc… Because I was always dealing with my parents fighting over what we were actually doing for that Holiday. And it ended up being that we basically spent most of our days/ time at home.
So if you can take ANYTHING away from this LONG BORING story… Understand that this Dog has changed my life like you’d never believe. I love her to DEATH. She sleeps on my legs or chest EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. I cannot sleep now without her near me. She is my WORLD. Let me tell you. If you’ve never had a Dog. Or maybe you’re just not a Dog person… They’re TRULY man’s best friend. At least my girl is. She’s the sweetest most adorable, cuddly pup in the universe. I love her to death.
This is my little Angel: American Cocker Spaniel; and her names Amber.
